JaySlushies

I Was A Black Pen; You Were A Dagger

We Are Two Loose Tongues Slurring Our Curses

lovely
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juneafterdawn

Officially “disabled”… So that’s good minus being constantly bored out of my mind. However, I can now buy a Mac book (sigh, I know, but gotta keep up with the times) and start working on two scripts I really want to perfect over the fall and hopefully get some of the cast and crew from the play I did to actually film in the spring. Also super focusing on music from here on out. Definitely no school in September but maybe winter depending how things are going.


Running tally
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juneafterdawn

January 12th, January 13th, January 15th, January 17th, February 5th, February 7th, February 8th, February 18th, February 21st, February 22nd, February 23rd, February 27th, March 2nd, March 3rd, March 5th, March 9th, March 10th..., March 11th, streak ended (and ended dramatically) March 24th, March 26th, March 31st, April 5th, April 9th, it's funny what comes to the surface when you admit you're ready, buried things you haven't seen in more than a month come back in force...that being said: May 19th, May 21st, May 23rd, May 27th, June 1st (big surprise), June 3rd- sleeping in my drawers, pizza, safe, June 5th, June 12th, June 19th, June 20th- the worst one yet. A walking chase, highschool attempt at salvation, a compliment, and a phone call, July 10th- I thought it might be over,July 28th- and like an avalanche it comes crashing back, August 18th, September 14th- best so far. Head on a pillow/ September 15th- change my name, quiet soft and subtle. Text you in the other room/September 25th- shower audition, Swayze lift, knees & lips & thighs/September 29th- twirl to "a scandal", jaws on the floor and two hands pawing a chest/ October 4th- praying to keep warm/


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juneafterdawn

It's ridiculous and unexplainable that I can't shake this. Year after year and it's still a daily thought. Goddammit.


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juneafterdawn

Solid thanksgiving weekend with oakville friends and Toronto friends. It was so nice being with the people I love so much. It was clean and we cleaned and cooked and ran errands and felt like grown ups. Then I come back here and just feel like it's a step backwards. I can't wait to get a new place with one roommate (hopefully) with out fruit flies everywhere or a mess on the floor constantly. Living in bedroom isolation is getting old. Praying December goes well. I can't stand childish anonymous bullshit anymore. Work for the rest of the week with no plans aside from maybe going to 918 to watch Thursday night football. And then partying with my friends and maybe extended friends on Saturday. Staying positive.


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juneafterdawn

Over tumblr. Still need a place for secret rants. Back.


Oh hey LJ
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juneafterdawn
This is a post for the band I'm not working on =(
"What's age got to do with it? It keeps replaying itself in my head. TIGHT TEENS, TIGHT JEANS!
Real shit to follow.

Because I don't want to hand write this right now
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juneafterdawn
Oh good lord, here comes nostalgia/ I know your love for me was just a phase/ I’m still fucked up from those fleeting days/ But Goddamn it’s nights like these/ I miss the passion in your speech/ the burning in your eyes/ And how you saw straight through the subtleties/ The laundry list of white lies/ And my restless, lost mind/ I swear I’d set the past aflame/ If you’d supply the gasoline/ ‘Cause those kerosene lips/ taste like a red sunrise/ Like candles in a cold bedroom/ With soft skin pressed to mine

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juneafterdawn
Good Goddamn

Wednesday August 29, 2012
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juneafterdawn
-Literally stayed in bed all day having a Newsroom marathon
-Ate as often as I could
-Showered at like 6 or something and then headed to BR for shipment work
-Left there at 11:30 after we did a great, quick job
-Went to Phog and had pizza and chatted with Tom a bit
-Read a good chunk of TFIOS
-At a gas station a dude heard me playing The Cinema and we talked about it and he said he'd download it because he loved Lydia
-Came home and worked on some songs for open mic night (A Wonder Years song and a Ben Kweller song and four originals, two of which I need to finish writing but keep putting it off. Goal for tomorrow)
-Watched some BB After Dark
-Watched the first three songs from The Ready Aim Fire!'s heartbreaking final set
-Sleep time

Monday August 27, 2012/Tuesday August 28, 2012
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juneafterdawn
Monday:
-Worked and it was alright, although pretty brutal in kids
-Got home and decided to head to Milk to get some reading done
-Anthony stopped me out front of Phog and told me to come in to hang with him, Dan, Marc, and Josh for James O-L's birthday/open mic
-I hung there and had a really good time, talked to Josh a bit about music and maybe working together again
-Sang What's my Age Again with the whole bar and then left at 2
-Got home and chatted with my mom for like an hour which was nice
Tuesday:
-Got up super late feeling like shit
-Did nothing until finally going to Jordan's where him and Steve jammed on some Minus the Bear and Alexisonfire in the music room
-Jor and I went to the mall to buy the new MTB record and see Jarrod
-Went to Ian's and watched a hilarious home movie for a goddamn hour and laughed hysterically
-Then we worked on the script for a little bit and died and died laughing. I don't know what was wrong with us but it was hilarious
Tomorrow is late night work, so I will be having a marathon of The Newsroom starting right now

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